I am revisiting anxiety because, while normal, it can become intolerable. While it may not be possible to describe any particular threat feeling of anxiousness can override our coping mechanisms with a sense of impending danger. Neither our good outcomes or our safety is ever certain, that’s not the adventurous world we inhabit; the future is, almost by definition, uncertain. This article on anxiety, and the thoughts of 19th-century philosopher Kierkegaard on being anxious, explores just that.
Kierkegaard wrote that “All existence makes me anxious, from the smallest fly to the mysteries of the Incarnation; the whole thing is inexplicable, I most of all; to me all existence is infected, I most of all. My distress is enormous, boundless; no one knows it except God in heaven, and he will not console me….” He described anxiety as a simultaneous feeling of attraction and repulsion, and the dizziness of freedom.
I wish for the dizziness of freedom, just consider the alternative. Dizzy but not disabled by anxiety, a normal sort of instability and balanced by Kierkegaard’s belief, “Whoever has learned to be anxious in the right way has learned the ultimate.”